Sanctuary of The Lost

2005-12-07T19:09:00.000-08:00

THIS BLOG IS NOW CLOSED FOREVER

2005-11-14T20:12:00.000-08:00

got the new santana cd i've been wanting since i first heard it. it's pretty awesome. i like the track by santana and the los lost boys. the track with bo bice is also nice. I love the Joss Stone and Sean Paul and Santana one the best. nothing much happening in school now, just waiting and learning, thinking about internship. Don't really know what i'm going to do about it yet. but i figure i'll figure it out eventually. collected my plugsuit, isnt what i wanted so i rejected it and am getting a replacement FOC, naturally. went for my first photoshoot as an offical model, and got paid 50 for about 3 hours of work. actual posing and stuff dat is. i think it was three hours mite have been shorter not too sure. its a free lance thing, so its kinda like, if have have, dun have den dun have. but its fun work. wont be doing it for long though. ah well sch has began. oh the horror

2005-10-27T20:37:00.000-07:00

got a new PHONE YEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

Siemens SF65, what i really wanted was a Panasonic X800 but ah well, will make do, my new phone aint too bad I suppose. Cant go anywhere for halloween cause my mom just came outta hospital so hafta stay home and help...bah...halloween, missed again...ah well...Asuka's costume is in, just need to pick it up. er...any one wanna make candy apples? or watch zorro? tag me!

2005-10-16T21:20:00.000-07:00

Following this post is the first chapter of my own vampire epic story =D Enjoy...It has no title yet, but will probably be called surreal. Here is the...Prologue...Enjoy =D

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Surreal: The Beginning

The dark velvet sky was spotless, without a single diamond adding to its surreal beauty. The quiet nighttime stood still, suffocating with silence as not a single blade of grass swayed in the still air.

On this ill solstice

Chills fill the air with great cheer

Shiver not my will

The lonely dark time was cheered by the presence of a pair of fireflies. The dancing couple twisted and twirled, like a duo of living shooting stars, their fiery trail fading behind them.

Evening time peace

Where will I rest my being

On this soft grass patch

A soft sigh broke the quiet peace of the night, even as the humming of the fireflies went unnoticed. A solitary man lay beneath a tree, gazing at the cold, empty, night sky.

Red moon rising

A chill in my bones

Bad omens

“I need to find better company den a bunch of flies with their butts on fire” complained the man, as he contemplated his latest verse, “Or I may never regain my talent.”

Sighing once more, the man sat up and reached up for a stretch. Folding the paper in his lap, he packed away his sparse writing materials and meager belongings. Checking his things over, the man stood and made ready to leave.

“Where will you lead me tonight sweet thing?” asks the man, look at the sky, “Or is Master Thief Illian on his own tonight?” Expectedly, the night sky did not reply, but seemed to instead, glower at him for being so impertinent.

Sighing seemed to be a habit for with this man, as he did it again, carefully picking up his bundle and strapping it on firmly to his back. Looking up to sky once more, as if pleading the moon goddess to appear and guide him in the dark of the night, the man shook his head, resigned to his fate and trudged on into the endless gloom.

2005-10-14T14:34:00.000-07:00

Stole it off someone's blog...

List three random facts about yourself that your friends might not know.

1) I have no dreams
2) I do not carry with me the intention to physically hurt people
3) I can't wait to die

7 Things That Scare Me / 7 Things That I Hate.

I can't be bothered to hate anyone or thing and there's nothing that I'm so scared of that I can't face, I'm usually just not bothered to

7 Things I Like The Most.

1) Flowers arrangement
2) Music
3) Sweets
4) Stuffed Toys
5) Lazying around
6) Stories
7) Scheming

7 Important Things In My Room.

1) Computer/Scanner/Printer/ soon to come Powerbook
2) Iriver/Ipod Shuffle
3) Digi Cam
4) Toys
5) Comics/Books
6) Costumes/Props
7) -

7 Random Facts About Me.

1) I aim to be lazy
2) I like listening to Marilyn Mason
3) I'm a form of controlled chaos
4) I hate wasting time
5) I don't like hanging around doing nothing
6) Boredom could kill me
7) I can talk very fast when I eat too much sugar

7 Things I Plan To Do Before I Die

1) Die
2) Come back
3) Die a different way
4) Come back
5) Die another way
6) Come back
7) Die again

7 fav bands (not in any order.)

Don't practice favortism

Why is everything but the first thing in 7s?

in any case, i probably wouldnt make a good martial artist, no matter what some ppl think, basically because I don't carry the intention to physcially hurt anyone with me. Pyschologically, though, its another thing. Another thing is, I'm generally too lazy to actually do things, its not because I can't or won't, I just don't bother too. I can do lots of things, like clean my room, but why bother, after all its just gonna get dirty again aint it?

I can cycle now...sorta...have an injury due to 'training' need to go and sign up for my sports/dance classes as soon as i get my school time table...ah well...nothing else to update...oo I got a mouse and it's called...Sir Poop-a-Lot...aka Poopy...

2005-10-01T11:46:00.000-07:00

bah i'm starting to really think i can't get angry at anyone no matter what

2005-09-23T14:20:00.000-07:00

its official, I'm screwed...

IMDP2 : D+
LineAni2 : B
Socio : B+
3DAni 1 : C+
Acting Workshop : C+
InMA : A

GPA 2.91 I FUCKING SCREWED HOW THE HELL DID I ALLOW MYSELF TO GET SUCH CRAPPY GRADES!! ARGH <> <> <>

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2005-09-18T23:36:00.000-07:00

i have concluded that car alarms are freakingly annoying

and

that naruto [the anime] is extremely noisy

and

I need everyone's blog address...can someone mail me their list if you are a) from tp or b) from cosplay world my links are sadly empty =P

2005-09-17T21:16:00.000-07:00

hmm went for WCG convention on sunday...saw rainer and alex and weishan and justin and joel. went as fan art variant gambit

me with colored eyes

saw a really cool joey player...she rox and she's doing kaiba this eoy...should prepare to worship the floor she walks on...cause she's plannig to do kogaiji...awesome-ness

nothing much happening mite be helping out at four seasons hotel animation thingy though and mite have a modeling job who knows...

some ppl annoy me. but they will not be mentioned because they are not worthy.

I updated YEAH! =D

2005-08-02T21:13:00.000-07:00

Was writting down Bruce Lee quotes in my book the other day and this is what I came up with [there's a lot, but these are the ones I understand...I think]

"Empty your mind, be formless, shapeless - like water.Now you put water into a cup, it becomes the cup, you put water into a bottle, it becomes the bottle, you put it in a teapot, it becomes the teapot. Now water can flow or it can crash!"

I understand the concept of your mind being like water, with the ability to adapt easily to situations that occur. I just don't know how to apply. I suppose it means to not be so rigid in your mindset and always be willing to adapt and change while retaining certain qualities. For water in a cup, is still water, no more no less. Perhaps it is to retain your morals and such, while being able to accept new ideals and cultures so on and so forth.

"The key to immortality is first living a life worth remembering."

I suppose if you live a life worth remembering, your life, not matter how short, would seem like it was forever, because there are so many things for you to remember. A life of emptyness, no matter how long can never be as fulfilling, as a short life with all the chaos that goes with it.

"using no way as a way, using no limitations as a limitation."

If there is no way, I suppose it means that there is no right or no wrong, so nothing is closed to you. Everything is an experiance and that you should never keep solely to one path [not meaning that you should stray off to the 'bad' side that is'. Having no limations as a limitation would be that your only limits would be no limits which would mean that there are again, no boundaries. It encourages you to explore and expriment.

"If you love life, don't waste time, for time is what life is made up of."

Self explanatory. However, do take time to chill and look at life once in a while.

"I'm not in this world to live up to your expectations and you're not in this world to live up to mine."

If I cannot even meet my own expectations, how can I meet anyone elses? Even if I could meet their expectations, would I be satsified? I expect no one to meet my expectations of their work, if they did, they'd be me. No one can ever meet the expectations of someone else, because everyone has different expectations and we do not live to meet the expectations of anyone other than ourselves because we ourselves are probably harder on ourselves more than anyone else. One always feels that ones parents cannot understand fact. Parents tend to forget that we have our own expectations and in trying to meet them, we cannot meet theirs. Or if we try to meet theirs we lose sight of our own. Perhaps when we can reach an understanding of our goals and their expectations can we have a more understanding relationship.

REMEBER ALL THIS IS ARGUABLE, THESE ARE MY THOUGHTS AND NOT HIS EXPLNATIONS

2005-07-16T14:17:00.000-07:00

Your Existing Situation

The situation is difficult and she is trying to persist in her objectives against resistance. Finds it necessary to conceal her intentions as an added precaution, in order to disarm the opposition.

Your Stress Sources

Sensitive, and susceptible to gentleness and delicacy of feeling, with a desire to blend into some sort of mystic fusion of erotic harmony. However, this desire remains unsatisfied due to the lack of a suitable partner or adverse conditions, and she keeps a strict and watchful control on her emotional relationships as she needs to know precisely where she stands. Is fastidious, esthetic, and has a cultured taste which allows her to form and express her own taste and judgment, especially in the fields of art and artistic creativity. Strives to ally with others who can assist her in her intellectual or artistic growth.

Your Restrained Characteristics

Remains emotionally unattached even when involved in a close relationship.

Wants to broaden her fields of activity and insists that her hopes and ideas are realistic. Distressed by the fear that she may be prevented from doing what she wants; needs both peaceful conditions and quiet reassurance to restore her confidence.

Your Desired Objective

Considers the existing circumstances disagreeable and over-demanding. Refuses to allow anything to influence her point of view.

Your Actual Problem

Her natural ability to examine everything with critical discrimination has been distorted into an attitude of harsh disapproval, which opposes and denigrates without regard to the real facts.

Your Actual Problem #2

The need for esteem--for the chance to play some outstanding part and make a name for herself--has become imperative. She reacts by insisting on being the center of attention, and refuses to play an impersonal or minor role.

2005-07-14T07:31:00.000-07:00

Hey Simmie -> sorry bout the misunderstanding but the quote was directed at you was directed at someone else should've made it clear. and I need my books back cause I wanna order DATA bk 7 and 8 via a friend in the manga bringing in business and need to show him my book.

Grad today. It was okay. Pretty smooth.

2005-07-11T01:02:00.000-07:00

hmm cosfest was yesterday was rather fun. Got there late and all that but overall wasnt too bad. Saw Jacky there, Xiao Hui and Abel too. I know Xing Jie was there...but didn't see him though. Wonder where he was.

Was dressed as Sohryu Asuka Langley in her Gothic Lolita variant costume. I intend to do all her costumes. I pretty much figured I was in a low key costume but apparently not.

That's me and my dear.

Changed later to a mixed costume of Ayanami Rei and Sohryu Askua Langley Gothic Lolita variants. I wore Rei's white top and Asuka's white bottom. That one seemed to attract a lot more attention.

Walked around outside more then inside. Most of the time I was with Dear, Elliot, Ding Zhi and Ding Zhi's friend. Met Tse Yang, Christopher and their friends there too. Saw a couple of juniors as well.

Met Simmie as she was walkin around, gave her her prezzie. Think from this day forth other than Ying and Rob, I shalt no longer converse or interact with KCians. They are waaaaaaay to weird. They don't like me, I couldn't care if they did or didnt. They know who they are, so I don't need to name.

Simmie -> I shalt not be bother you nor those people anymore, not worth my time or effort since you guys don't want me to bother in the first place. Don't contact me, and I won't contact you. Even if I see you, it'll be as if I never saw you or know you.

Here I shall quote Kid Rock

"So what, say how, say who
Fuck what, fuck me, fuck you
Come clean, you know I will

I'm the illest fool
Cooler than the water in a swimmin' pool
Fly like a seagul, kickin' like a mule
More jams than a beetle from Liverpool
I deliver fool
Now who the fuck are you?

They say I'm cocky, and I say What?
It aint braggin' motherfucker if ya back it up
They say I'm cocky, and I say What?
It aint braggin' motherfucker if ya back it up"

And I will leave it at that have your celebrations where you will. Take heart that should anyone of you ever belittle any of my comrades in cosplay...well I'd try to bring you down, but I don't think you're well-known enough for me to bother.

[why am I bothering with this again? oh ya...Eddings always puts me in a weird mood]

In any case. It was fun to see some people again. Saw lots of cosplay people that I know. I won't say friends because I know none of them well enough to be friends, and I think from my expriance with...'friends' especially those from school, I don't think I will have anymore.

School is cool, I'm doing what I think I want. But if I were to really think about it. I don't actually want anything. I don't really need anything either. I want what I want because other people expect me to want other than that I dont really care.

2005-06-23T23:10:00.000-07:00

Complete sincerity: You believe in being
straightforward with others, and you expect the
same from them. People would consider you a
good listener, and one who is calm and mostly
serious.

Which Characteristic From the Samurai Code Matches You Best? (You may find out your best trait)
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You are a Ninja.
You are like a samurai gone bad. The good side
is no longer interesting you and feel that
darkness is where you belong. Though you may
think you are the evil one, you're not. Because
deep inside there is still that little glimpse
of who you once were. You don't like to
associate with people that much and keep away.
In your mind they are ignorant and not so
interesting anyway. That means you are a lonley
person who don't trust people, and you have
really no desire to do so either. Life is a big
pain and annoyance for you and you aren't quite
sure on how to handle it. Other people see you
as mysterious and secretive, and that is
probably right.

Main weapon: Daggers and throwing
stars
Quote: "I hate people. People make
me pro-nuclear" -Margaret Smith
Facial expression: Frown

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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Your word is: Brooding. You are a true thinker and
often try to figure out the meaning of life,
why we are all here etc. You may not be so
social, and often think twice before acting but
those thoughts you have in your mind never stop
flowing in. Sometimes you can be so
concentrated you forget about other things that
you have to do. Don't change, this world needs
deep people.

What dark word represents you? (anime pics and 7 outcomes)
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Your wise quote is: "Fashion is a
form of ugliness so intolerable that we have to
alter it every six months" by Oscar
Wilde.You are a very sarcastic person with a
sharp tongue. You may not be the one always
talking, but your mind is nevertheless
critizing. You tend to have a cynical view on
life itself and be somewhat withdrawn with who
you really are. Society now is in your eyes
corrupted and you wonder how the world will
survive. And people are in your mind very
ignorant and blind to the reality.

What wise quote fits you?(pics) UPDATED
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You need understanding.
In your life there has been many people that
could never seem too comprehend your
personality. Now you have either become an
out-cast because of their narrow minds or you
have adjusted yourself to them, and never
letting them see who you are deep inside. You
now think that no one will ever understand you
and you hate that fact. Though you are scared
of what the effects might be if you would
decide to let someone in so you keep a safe
distance that you both curse and bless.

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You are the Dreaming Bride!

Which Bride are you? -With Anime Pics!-
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Your Hidden Power Is Wind

You have a twisted soul. You change your
directions and mind easily. Your beauty is you
over powering feature. But many enemies are
surprised by your beauty and your great power
to control wind

Gem Stone: Amethist, Eye
Color:Grey Blue,Hair Color:Grey that
goes to your shoulder Blades

Quote:And if the cloud bursts, thunder
in your ear
You shout and no one seems to hear.
And if the band you're in starts playing different
tunes
I'll see you on the dark side of the moon.

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2005-06-13T21:39:00.000-07:00

hmmm...was talking to my friend today...she was having trouble with her groupmates and wanted some advice on how to handle the situation. She didnt want to offend them, but she wanted them to get stuff done [which they didnt want to do] and didnt know how to tell them properly. I told her to just tell them and not worry about if she offended them cause she could always apologise later if necessary. then proceeded to tell her how I'd handle the situation and then she asked me how i did it.

how i was so confident that i was right about things that i could just say what i wanted without offending people.

told her that it was because I was confident of what i was saying and that I knew what I wanted to put across to people.

OMFG NEIL GAIMAN IS COMING TO SINGAPORE!!!!

will have to blog another day

OMG NEIL GAIMAN IS COMING TO SG

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2005-06-12T17:41:00.000-07:00

Hmmm went for a competition yesterday with the MeowMoo character, Astaroth and managed to win consolation prize. Which means I'm not as great as the top three, but not as crappy as those who didnt win. On the bright side, Strife [one of the judges and a really great cosplayer] said I was really good at my cosplay. So that's awesome to me. I won 50 bucks worth of a pillow and a towel. Thankie to Senior Francine of ADnM who helped with with my makeup. I was touching up [aka messing up] when she came by and saw me and helped me out. Also saw Hui Shan who I think came down to support me. Thankie much.

Didnt do much...just walked up the stage, glared at the ppl around as i made my way to the MC and glared at the MC. He said I had ''violent" eyes. oO. Den did a few poses and bowed and walked off. The MC didnt have much to say about me. Think I scared him. He was talking crap about the other cosplayers as they went on stage. He kept strangely silent when i was on stage.

First time takin part in a compeititon. Didnt really win, but didnt really lose. So it's not too bad. Met the Streetfest photographer, talked to him a bit, exchanged emails as well. Was also talking to his friend, Christopher. I think he likes me. He's half westerner. Looks kinda cute, too bad he smokes.

Someone posted my pic up on forum and called me a babe, asking who i was. Fortunately, I'm not the only one he's looking for.

It's easier to be on stage as a character than myself. Because I know how to act and react as my character, but I dunno how to act and react as myself. Because as myself, I want to act and react the way ppl expect me to, but I dunno how to apply that when there are so many ppl execpting different things from me. oh well

2005-06-02T21:38:00.000-07:00

today is my birthday...the joy....bleah...got a prezzie from ying and sara...thanks guys...prolly wont wear it...honestly....i didnt even know it was a shirt...it was kinda...stuck together and er...crumbly....and er...well...thought it was a funky design cloth or something...suppose it is...kinda...lol thanks anyway

went to school, had dinner came home that's all...nothing else...

oh oh mailed ST Ubran about their mistake in calling Hilary Duff a Gothic Lolita yep yep...thats all

2005-05-19T00:26:00.000-07:00

AH GOD I FUCKING HATE MY TIMETABLE

ARGHHHHHHH I didnt get any of my design electives which means i'm really screwed up
ARGH BLOODY @#(*&$*@%&^*)&$@%($@#%*&@*^&$*&#@%)#$&@()*^($@#&^(#$&^@(*^@

on the bright side i got sociology and lin ani 2 as well as 3d ani 1 but i have to drop one...i also have acting workshop and internet media authoring 1...and NO DESIGN ELECTIVES BLOODY FUCKING @(*#&)&()&*%@$#^*$#)^*(($%@#$&@^&@)^*$@&^@&@%&@$%*&$*&@^@$#^%^#$%@^

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

my classes are as such

monday 0900-1200 = acting workshop
tuesday 0900-1300 = 3d ani 1
tuesday 1500-1800 = IMDP2
wednesday 0900-1100 = socio
wednesday 1500-1800 = line ani 2
wednesday 1800-1900 = socio [WTF?????]
thursday 0900-1300 = internet media authoring
thursday 1500-1800 = IMDP2
FRIDAY IS FREE DAY

I FUCKING HATE MY TIMETABLE

2005-04-28T14:33:00.000-07:00

I'M IN AUSSIE!!!

w00t haha well i have been for the past week...touched down last friday and spent six days in melbourne city. it's a real nice place. Stayed at my cousin's house during that time. It's not really a big place but it's nice anyways. Melbourne has freaky weather it can be cool one day and really hot the next. But at least it didnt rain, which is a real good thing.

Had yum cha for lunch on the day I arrived there. It was okay yum cha and china town there is kinda small but smack in the city. There was this sign across the yam cha place that read 'Wing Chun and Kung Fu lessons call -------' it was painted like an arrow and was pointed to a wall...and the tiny shed in front of it...shall post the photos another day when i get back to sg.

The day after I went to Victoria Market...kinda cool like a HUGE flea market...lots of stuff and food and candy and shoes and clothes but it's all autumn-winter clothes so there's nothing to buy not to mention that i'm so tiny i I can't find clothes to fit.

Did loadsa shopping [mostly window shopping] got a bookmark for simmie...erm...undies for me and that's it for now...will be getting at LEAST 3 pairs of shoes before i head home...will also be buying loads of hair dye.

In Canberra now, in Marc's room using his 'state of the art' pc lol...it's nice and cool here...went out to woolies earlier to buy stuff...I love aussie. Esp Canberra. Feels like I just came home. I think my home is really here. Not in Singapore. I don't feel as comfortable in Singapore as I do here. It's so nice here. I love here. It rocks. Cannot explain how I feel to be back home.

will blog later...trips here are usually boring cause it's like going back home...nothing happens...and theres no where to go...ahhhh i love this life...

2005-04-22T14:07:00.000-07:00

gah...well...let's see...a few things happened over the last week but nothing big. I got my hair dyed and i'm going to australia...today...plane jets off at 1945. Dont expect anyone to come see me off but it's not like I really care for them to either. If anyone wants anything tag me within the next two and a half weeks and I'll try to pick up the stuff for you.

Results

2005-04-10T15:35:00.000-07:00

Finally got my results for this sem on friday. didn't do too bad i guess. I got ONE D+ though...not good. Everything else is A and B. GPA is 3.03. Must raise it to AT LEAST 3.5 next sem. Must go higher than 3.03 at any rate. I'm also in the top 25% which leaves me terribly upset cause it's so vague. Last sem I was top 50% so my goal was top 25% now that I'm top 25% what now? I wish there were more specifics so I can sorta...herm...oh I don't know...have something to work for? I suppose working hard is a given, but I still find it horribly vague and it's largely unsettling.

I also think I'm in the wrong course here. I don't feel like I've worked for my marks. I don't feel extremely happy or depressed with my marks. Kinda feel like, 'Oh I got this grade. wonderful'. terribly understated but yes that roughly sums up how I feel about my grades. I definitely don't feel like I deserve my scores. I feel like I didn't work hard enough for them [is something wrong with me??]. I don't think I'm in the right course because I don't feel like I'm actually working. I kind of feel like I'm just playing a game and doesn't matter if I do it right or wrong because there'll be a reset button [aka my parents] if things DO go wrong. Not the right mind set to have perheps but...I don't know.

At the moment when I do my work I do feel like I do deserve certain scores, but at the end of everything? Nope, don't feel shit. It's like 'okay I did this and got this...so what now?' I can't actually see myself in my line of work in the future really. I don't even think I'll be using my diploma. This isn't what I want to do really. Maybe I really do belong in JC? I enjoy life in TDS, it rocks. But it's too slack for me. I for one don't really feel much pressure when it comes to work. Might be because I'm not actually allowed to do much outside of work. Not being allowed to go out as and when I want restricts me alot and the time I'd rather spend else where is den spent on work. Which is a good thing though it might not feel that way at that moment.

[as I blog I'm looking for a new blog skin]

Think I shall pick up fanfic writting again. It's a good hobby. My english has not gotten any better since I entered poly [I hate poly for that]. It's seriously deteriorated. Sometimes I wish I weren't in poly. Gah...maybe I did make the wrong choice in going poly. Should've pushed my parents to letting me go to Australia to study. I hate it here. I wasn't meant to be here. I and wouldn't think twice about leaving if I were given a chance.

Some people say I'm heartless cause I don't care about the people I leave behind when I go. I away. I say people come and go all the time why should my leaving distress anyone? I came, I saw and I'm gone. Happens to everyone eventually. People say you lose touch after a while. Well if you werent gonna put in the effort to keep in touch in the first place was losing it such a big deal? Suppose that's why I didn't really bother to make much friends in sec school, cause my parents always told me I'd go aussie after my Os. So I didnt really bother with friends. No point if I'm leaving right? Well sad to say, my parents played me out and DIDN'T send me to aussie, something I'm still ticked off about. It's not like I didn't earn the right to go, my grades weren't THAT bad. They were rather good actually. So why didn't I get to go? Well they said I couldn't take care of myself. What I don't know I can learn right? Oh well.

Sucks being in Singapore. I hate it here. I really do. I hate the people. I hate the weather. I hate the system. I hate the lifestyle. I hate just about everything about it. I also hate the stupid Newater. Things that I dont hate include, food and my friends. That's about it. Everything else is just peachy. Gah...

Took some nice photos the other day. Randomness but here they are. Some are random trees and stuff not others are from the day I went to make choco at my friend's house with my friends and some of my friend's new kitten socks.

hmm photos won't load. oh well...some other time den.

2005-04-06T18:38:00.000-07:00

You are an
assassin.
That means you are a proffessional and do your
job without mixing any emotions in it. In your
life you have probably been hurt many times and
have gotten some mental scars. This results in
you being distant from people. Though many
think that you are evil, you are not. What you
really are is a person, trying to forget your
pain and past. You are the person who never
seems to care and that is why being an assassin
fits you good. Atleast, that's what people
think. Even if you don't care that much for
your victims, you still have the ability to
care and to generally feel. It is not lost,
just a little forgotten. In crowds you tend to
not get to noticed, and dress in black or other
discrete colours. You don't being in the
spotlight and wish people would just leave you
alone. But once you do get close to someone you
have a hard time letting go and get real down
if you loose him/her.

Main weapon: Sniper
Quote: "The walls we build around
us to keep out the sadness also keep out the
joy" -Jim Rohn
Facial expression: Narrowed eyes

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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Wine

?? Which Alcoholic Drink Are You ??
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You're Gangsta Bitch Barbie. You're tough and you
like it rough, and of course you like to pop a
cap in any wiggers ass.

If You Were A Barbie, Which Messed Up Version Would You Be?
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Gay Bear

Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You?
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You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always
pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no
where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek
or more passionate embrace. super markets and
work places are your favorite places to attack
your loved one with all your love =p

What kind of kiss are you?
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You are Marijuana (aka: weed, dope, skunk,
chronic...). You are the most commonly used
drug in the world. You are powerful, stubborn,
moody, have a strong attitude. You are
classified as class (A and B) illegal drugs.

What kind of Drugs are you? and how that reflect your personality?
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MAors

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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GREEN

??Which colour of Death is yours??
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img src="http://images.quizilla.com/N/Nariel-flame/1109606041_CMyDocumentsAnger.jpg" border="0" alt="stuff">
You are the Spirit of Anger. You are every inch the
bad girl. Something happened to make you so
angry and you need to channel it out, if anyone
gets in your way, they're in for a big shock.
Friends are not essential for you, you don't
care whether they're there or not. But if you
do have friends they will be the most loyal for
it takes a lot to become your friend. You
attract people to you, so a partner is no
trouble but if they can't handle you then
they're out the window.

Which stunning spirit of emotion are you? NEW AND IMPROVED! (amazingly beautiful anime pics!)
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You are a Chinese/Asian Dancer. You are the
smartest in the party, you have a beautiful
creative mind and you like to use it to help
your loved ones, you care a lot about your
friends and you try always to protect them and
give them advice. Your ideal man is the one
with a strong determined character, you like to
feel safe with him.

What kind of dancers are you? (Girls only)
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You hide behind The Cold Mask. you like to show
people that you don't care about any thing and
that people don't concern you but you only do
this because you are afraid that when you love
someone or get close to them, you might loose
them in the end, cuz loosing is your worst
nightmare, so you always tend to keep a
distance between you and the others, this way
you think you are safe.

What kind of masks you hide behind? (i added pix)
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Chocoooooooooolate

2005-04-06T14:50:00.000-07:00

yesterday was really fun. we managed to complete three chocolate recipes in about...2.5hrs between the five of us. that's me, leonard, simmie, gong and elliot. talk about a lot of sugar! i don;t think i've ever seen so much sugar in my life in one place collectively...or maybe I have...but... *shudder* it's still a lot of sugar. geeze...hope the stuff tastes good though. I haven't eaten any of them yet. wished more ppl could have come...would be have been more fun i should think.

shout out to ying -> hope you're feeling better! and hope you enjoy the choco

hmm i started the day by going to leo's place to do the armor thingy. not fun to do. water and squishy. wrapped in cling wrap and aluminium...and covered in pulpy paper mache...yuck...

den we went to a coffe shop nearby to meet up with simmie and waited for leo to finish lunch before we headed over to ying's.

when we got to ying's leo got a call from elliot and we found out that he was 'lost'. after leo told him how to get there, leo entered the gate [me and simmie went in earlier] and ying closed the gate after him rite in elliot's face.

after that we got down to making stuff...it was real fun... i don't think i'll forget ying's 'shoo....shooo' for a while...heh...shoo-ing away the fly. and den there was the spoon on nose incident. Leo managed to get a spoon to stick to his nose, but elliot said it was the wrong way to do it and took a spoon and stuck it on his nose not realizing it was the same spoon that leo used to spoon choco and had licked the choco off it...ew...but funnie...

after that was more scrambling around to cook stuff and all that and we were done by about 1710 and we started at about 1430...

cool eh?

after all the cooking and all that...me, simmie and leo went to elliot's house to play with his new kitten, socks, and have dinner. simmie's good at console games...managed to learn a few tricks there for soul caliber. interesting game...if i were into console games more. so we played with the kitten for a long while...had dinner split the choco up and went home...endth the day. so fun. want to do it again. let me know when if you guys wanna do it again.

New Blog Skin

2005-03-31T21:34:00.000-08:00

Got a new blogskin...nice isn't it? It's got Constantine. He rules. Got my schdule for the dip show thingy and lucky me is on duty at the registration table. Simple life Simple pleasures. WA HA HA HA HA. Thank kami I ain't on ushering duty. Crowd Control would have been interesting though.

Not much happens now adays. Counting down to when I leave Sg. 15 days before I leave here. I can't wait. If anyone wants anything, tag me about want you want from Aussie and I'll try to get it. No promises though.

Something to ponder on. Is God scared of man? After all, the reason he chased Adam and Eve out of the Garden of Eden was because they ate the apple of knowledge not because they disobeyed him. If he wanted them to not disobey him, he would not have let the snake into the garden to tempt them. If he loved them so much he would not have tested them. But maybe that shows the amount of trust he had in them. But that's off topic. I say God is scared of man knowing too much. Think maybe because if Adam and Eve had continue to eat from the tree they might have found a way to destroy God? Who knows. Just a little thing to think about. I shall ponder on this further on my own. Any one got anything to say? Tag me.

He likes to be by himself a lot, but don't let that
scare you off. He has a very caring soul and he
will always love you from the bottom of his
heart! And if your friends start telling you
hes not your type, ignore them or laugh in
their faces. You are the key to unlock that
heart of his^^.

What kind of boyfriend would you have?(with pics and obviously for girls^^)
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perfect- To you, your girlfriend is the most
important person in your life, you would do
anything for her, and that's why, you're the
perfect boyfriend. Some girls would kill to
have a boyfriend like you, one that always
knows how to make a girl feel special. You
rock! ^0^

What kind of boyfriend are you? (for guys! with pics!^0^)
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You are the depressed/dreamer anime girl.You either
lost somebody you love or somebody broke you
heart so bad that you can't pick up the
shattered pieces without hurting yourself.You
think nobody can heal your wounds but don't
stop looking because you never know who loves
you enough to try hell the one special guy
could be right infront of your eyes and you
don't even know it.You also love to day dream
because it seems like the only place that makes
you happy.BBut little do you know that people
all around you are trying to make you happy and
you won't let them in fearing you'll get
another heartbreak or get hurt worse.But just
try and if things go wrong just brush it off
and try again.It never hurts to try.One more
thing never let that lost love one leave you
heart keep them in forever and keep their
memory alive.

If You Were An Anime Character What Would You Look Like?(Girls Only)
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You are a cat demon.You are lazy and sleeps
alot.You love having attention and you will do
anything to have it.You are cute and everyone
thinks so ^_^

What Type Of Demon Are You?
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Life and How it's going...

2005-03-27T21:52:00.000-08:00

okay..it's been an exceedingly long time since i last updated, had a lot of things to do and just didn't feel like blogging I suppose.

Got my mp3 player exactly a week ago. My sleek sliver baby is now a week old. wow. It's a pretty cool mp3 player, although there was waaaaaaaaaaaay too much hype about it for advertising [in case you're wondering, I have a iRiver H10 mp3 player]. My streamlined player has a color screen, can store and view pictures and text files. It has both voice and line in recording. Also has a nice touch scroll interface and best of all, it actually plays music. A bit small at 5 gig, maybe I should've gotten the 20gig sony player, that one could play vids, but well...that was a bit out of my range and I think I'll wait a year before I upgrade, at least, if not half a year.

Found an Al Bhed translator the other day, it's quite fun. If anyone wants it, IM or tag me and I'll send it to you. I've also got the Al Bhed written alphabet. Looks nice, albeit hard to write. Al Bhed is the langauge used in FFX and FFX2 I think. Comes from Yuna's tribe or something. I just saw it and thought it was cool so I downloaded the text file and translator. It's quite fun really. I'll probably use it to write the inscription on my weapons that I'll be using for cosfest 05

Cosfest 05 I'll be doing my own design armor and weaponry. It'll probably have Al Bhed inscription. I think I'll call my flamberge 'God's Will' [in Al Bhed that'd be written and read as 'kut'c femm'] and I think I'll call my dagger 'God's Guilt' [kut'c kiemd]. I've also got three throwing spikes/knives [depending on how I design them] and I'll call those erm...I have no idea what to call them or my dragon versions of Batman's batarangs. I'll be a walking armory for this Cosfest. haha. Hope to get best of show, but I think I don't think I'll be able to get it. Speaking of which, I think Kyoist wins best of show every year which is a great thing I think. She's a really good cosplayer. One of the best in Singapore I think.

Hm...what else is there...well there IS diploma show this coming weekend and there's this thing about Student Ambassador's 'retreat' too. I can't wait for the latter. We've narrowed what we want to do to three things; Night Walk, Riders Lodge in JB or a Klong visit in Kukup, also in JB. Should be a fairly interesting retreat no matter what we do or where we go. I'm actually glad to be a student ambassador though I'm still wondering which lecturer it was that sabotaged me. Because only lecturers can select who gets to be student ambassdor and I am most certainly sure that I am not of that material.

OOT for a moment [if I even have one] I saw my lecturer at church [Felix... yuck!]

Finally cleared up my room though it will only stay clean for a little while before getting dirty again sometime reaaaaaaaaally soon. Went to Ikea the other day and got some stuff including my first aid bag. It's a mixed up thing cause it's a cosplay/photo shoot first aid kit. That means my kit holds actualy first aid stuff and first aid for costumes as well.

Went to the Cosplay Party [don't think I've blogged about that] about a month plus ago. It was okay. Great to see my friends though the food was...sad...can't remember where I threw my cosplay cards though. oh well.

Simmie was asking me for names for her doll the other day...you stole the name Lazuli from the book didn't you? From Les Bijoux.

Thinking of making chocolates. Anyone want to give it a try? [BTW happy easter everyone]

Been downloading some stuff randomly lately. I've got the two Evangelion movies that end the series and all I have to say is that Death and Rebirth is crap, EoE is cool and I want to see the director's cut eva. Haven't watched any anime lately or read any manga lately either. Been going back to my roots and reading more batman/xmen stuff. Actually, that's all I borrow from the library.

Need to go cloth shopping. Now that I'm a member of SCC, can go get cloth from the chinatown people, it's cheaper there. I think.

Will be going to Australia soon, in april. If anyone wants anything, give me a shout. Either IM me or tag me. Will probably get at least a pair of boots if not two. Which reminds me I need to go check up on the shoe suppliers in Singapore.

er...that's all for no I think...man blogger needs emoticons

New Blog Addy

2005-03-21T00:57:00.000-08:00

My New Blog...was tired of the old one...let's start off on a light note shall we?

Epee! The french answer of a sword! It looks
harmlessly but its strength is its speed. One
pass in your heart or an onther important organ
and you die a painful death.

What's your Weapon? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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Cyber Boy! You live for your PC and to play video
games. The girls will love your cleverness. But
attention, to hack the planet is okay, but
don't forget to pay attention on your friends
too.

What kind of Boy are you? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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okay..so I'm not a boy big deal....

Classical Beauty! A true beauty. You're the perfect
example for that what every young girl wants to
be or what a boy wants to marry, a princess. Of
course you're pretty but you also have many
qualitys which are as important for you as you
looks.

What kind of beauty are you? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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BIRDS! How pretty they can sing and they are smart.
But take care! Birds are sensitive and they
need a lot of attention. Never own a single
bird and have a look that they have a big cage
or that they can fly in a room!

What's your ideal pet? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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yeck....I hate birds....

The Angel of Death! Calm ruler over the death.

What kind of Angel are you? .._..contains Anime pictures.._..
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You are dead on the inside. There's nothing there
for you, feeling alone and like your not a part
of the living world you once knew or never
knew, the emptiness and numbness hurts to keep
inside, but through tears and sacrifice, you
still do.

What sort of 'gothic' person are you? (pics)
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that's all